Lean Into Life

One night

I had a thought

What if we all did anything we want?

We quit our jobs

We went outside

No one could tell us how to live our lives

One night

I took a drug

I gave 300 uninvited hugs

You went to bed

I hit the floor

I don't think that we should get together anymore

One night

Came and went

Spent lots of money, it was money well spent

I tacked on some credit card, credit card debt

On a night that didn't mean nothin'

A night I'll probably forget

One night

I had a feeling

Bust through a wall, cut through the ceiling!

27 club

And I'm still fuckin' breathing

I'm hyperventilating in a building full of people

It's beginning to feel like I've

Been training my whole life for nothing

I've been meaning to tell you something

You gotta lean into life just a little

I think I'm breaking my own heart

I think I'm making my own self sick at the thought of getting sick

I don't leave anymore

Did I leave my keys in the door?

It was so peaceful before

Come on, buddy

You gotta lean into life a bit

Ya gotta callous up them hands and get some dirt under them fingertips

I've felt thicker skin in papier-mache ornaments

Another Christmas Eve and you're still bumming out about the same shit

Come on, my friend

Yeah, you're really going through it

You got all this free time, no fuckin' idea what to do with it

Sounds an awful lot to me like you like talking 'bout your bootstraps

Go to hell, I am the Devil

Tryna claw my way to heaven

I am regretful

We had a weekend filled with cocaine and Essentia

It was fun or not? I can't really remember

Yeah, we wonder why we can't reach our potential

I am regretful

Yeah, my head is in the gutter

Do we really need this shit to love each other?

Another cycle of get fucked up then recover

I just wanna be a better older brother

My head is in the gutter

It's beginning to feel like I've

Been training my whole life for nothing

I've been meaning to tell you something

You gotta lean into life just a little

I think I'm breaking my own heart

I think I'm making my own self sick at the thought of getting sick

I don't leave anymore

Did I leave my keys in the door?

It was so peaceful before