Letters From Momtown

I wanted to be more than I thought that I could be with all this time

Which show should I put on, is it worth this to put off and sacrifice

I’ll go on like this for days and years

I'm begging please put down the phone

Decisions force me to acknowledge the passing of time

If I press pause I will remain mine

Procrastination my sword, I’ll slay you if I get bored

I’m just too scared to get out of bed

Starting over’s no fun, could you please burn my plus one

Now and for eternity?

Picking up my phone I'll stay all night

Wanting to do more with wasted time

Watered down commitments

I feel held down to convince myself I’m fine

Executive function neurotypical thing I can’t win

I wish I could cut the daisies sprouting from my throat and mouth

That tell me to stop every task

I never speak or see it out

Just follow through follow through follow through follow

I wanted more with my time and I don’t wanna waste it