Don't Wanna Leave

I don’t wanna leave

But I know I have to

I’m doing this for me

But it’s just as much for you

You gave me these walls

Kept me safe through my falls

I don’t feel alright

But that will come in time

And if in 6 weeks I’m back here

And this time I storm out

It’s probably to do with me

Hating how I’ve turned out

And how you must feel

Though I know you won’t admit

About my future

And all of my bullshit

I don’t really know which way I should be going

Till I’ve got one foot in the wrong train, doors closing

I don’t really know where the fuck I should stand

But it’s good to know the flowers on your mug

Made you less of a man

I know you don’t mean it like that

And I know I overreact

But now that I’ve taken some breaths

And some backwards steps I see

You’re not the problem

You’re merely a symptom

And if in 2 weeks I’m back here

And I’ve let it go now

It’s probably to do with me

Realising deep down

That no matter how hard

I try to play victim

You want the best for me

No matter the friction

I don’t really know which way I should be going

Till I’ve got one foot in the wrong train, doors closing

I don’t really know where the fuck I should stand

And I know that you’d help if I asked

I just think that I need to work this out first hand