In Front of Others

I believe in the afterlife

I believe in a merciful god

but the truth I don't care much about

It's like bodies in the ground

I hold my fist up like a tower

Then I shake it at the sky

I put myself in front of others

And I don't look after you

In the end

We all want some relieve

from the actions that

we seek forgiveness for

I don't claim to be

The one to embrace your flaws like it was mine!

I've tried to feel powerless

I've tried to feel ashamed

I've seen it in their faces

It's the expression of the lame

Estranged

even from your most confided

You find yourself

in love with your enemy,

and it's breaking you

Like those plates from the table last night.

When the ambulance came around

I was already gone

But then I woke up at the hospital

White sheets around my eyes

To what extent have you given yourself my dear

Do you not know the consequences of

retrieving memories

like it's something new

Don't go there if it's not what you've been asked.