Ketamine

I’m recovering

Addicted to the suffering

It’s all about you

Torture myself

Cut down to the bone

I’m so miserable

Why don’t you want me

O.D. on your undivided attention

Spiral in question

Am I alive

I should take my SSRIs

Why don’t I try cognitive behavioral therapy

I’m perfectly aware this is killing me

But I can't let it go because

I’m addicted to you

Put me out of my misery

Want you all to myself

Lift me up like ketamine

I’m struggling

You're shockingly cruel

I wish I knew where do you disappear to

Torture myself, staring at my phone

Crying, wake up on the floor

Why don't you want me?

O.D. on your occasional affection

You leave me breathless

Anxiety, I should take another benzodiazepine

Think I'm delusional?

I disagree

I’m perfectly aware there's no you and me

Not really.

No, not anymore.

You have the power you don’t know.

I'm not in control, you are.

You can make me do anything

Terrorize my family

Lie, cheat steal constantly

Goodbye hopes and dreams

Recovering, not really.

Torture myself, staring at my phone

Crying, wake up on the floor

Desperate for love

I forgot who I was