Passiona

The people in the apartments across the street

Literally and metaphorically look down on me

Tangled in tenderness, why do I have to live like this?

I was tempted by your company, you've already noticed me

I'm sorry for what I say, when I don't know what I'm saying

You don't have to play this cat and mouse game I am playing

I'm just a pretty sad person in a quite surreal place

And I don't look up from my phone because I won't see your face

And it's pathetic, it's also not a competition

And I'm absolutely infinitely more scared of you that you are of me

And I've always been the one who cares too much

And I hope you're happy, I hope you've slept

I'll try not to write another record about the pain in my chest

I'm just so glad I could be someone that you wanted

And I don't recognize these stars, I'm unfamiliar with this skyline

I was born and bred in bars, now nothing manmade is in my eyeline

Turn and walk back to the house that they saved after the war

And I am questioned once again, get asked what would I do that for

And our host tells me I'm sick, tentatively hands me a spliff

And I know he's forgotten my name but I don't remember his

And I'm absolutely infinitely more scared of you that you are of me

And I've always been the one who cares too much

And oh god if only it was that east to run from what I've achieved

I've let it define me, I'm having panic attacks on German TV

This is not work ethic, it's survival technique

And there's nothing I can really do

So I sit in the band room, start fights to get attention from you

There is nothing I am qualified or smart enough to do

Sitting in bedrooms, start fights to get attention from you

I walk off into the cornfield, every cut's a new relief

I might stop talking altogether if you'd stop talking to me

And if I'm really supposed to be here

Why has no one come to that conclusion

I'm out of place amongst the band boys, I can't suspend disillusion

And music industry professionals, yeah, they can all go and fuck themselves

And it's just me and Chris, he's stoned as shit and passing out

That was okay once, for some reason it's sad now

For some reason it's sad now

For some reason it's sad