Two-Sided

I'm lying alone in bed and my thoughts are getting nasty

I'm thinking of the things that lie ahead

So I go on Snapchat

The first thing I see is my face man

I look disgusting

I scroll to the left and once again

I see that nobody texts me

And nobody gets me

And maybe its the lack of self-worth

Or the fact that I can't stay sober

Or maybe I think about it too much

Overthinking never got me anywhere anyway

So bitch move over

Yeah, maybe I need closure

Maybe I should start planning where we're gonna put my tombstone

Cause I'm leaving pretty soon bruh

Oh shit, I'm doing it again

Where I fantasize about dying

Mom, I swear that I'm trying

Just please know that I'm trying

But I have realized

Anything's better than being sober

I'll worry about the bad things when I'm older

I heard my demons gonna talk to me soon

Shit, says who?

Cause I'm leaving my ass back here

Where I can't think clear

When I don't think five things at a time and I don't necessarily wanna die

And I am never in a mood

Bitch, says you

I'm ready to do anything, anytime

You'd know if you hit my line but

On God fuck some of ya

I know friendship isn't guaranteed but

Nobody gets me

And maybe its the lack of self-worth

Or the fact that I can't stay sober

Or maybe I think about it too much

Overthinking never got me anywhere anyway

So bitch move over

Yeah, maybe I need closure

Maybe I should start planning where we're gonna put my tombstone

Cause I'm leaving pretty soon bruh

Oh shit, I'm doing it again

Where I fantasize about dying

Mom, I swear that I'm trying

Just please know that I'm trying

(I have realized)

Anything's better than being sober

(Bad things, when I'm older)