Precooked Rice (Blurry Illusions)

You know just how to

Brew your coffee so

Every flavor shows its teeth

You take your time with each section of my spine, babe

You really know just how to please

You're meticulous with

Every grocery list

You've got a garden growing green

I smile silently, you're staring back at me and say

Tell me what you're thinking for a penny

But I don't wanna tell you why I don't cry anymore

How many nights I've spent clutching my knees against the floor I buy

Precooked Rice

And I'm not that nice to myself

I don't wanna show you what it's like behind my smile

So I'll just keep my thoughts at bay and kiss you for a while

Let's keep our lips busy

Get a little dizzier

Blurring this illusion that I've built for you

Don't shatter it now

Don't shatter it now

You get up early

You go on runs

Six miles through the city

Just for fun

You revel in the stillness of the morning

Invite me to the desert without any sort of warning

I take my pills at 11.

Get out of bed at quarter til

Can't seem to find where I've misplaced my peace of mind but

Believe it or not this is how I heal

But I don't wanna tell you why I don't cry anymore

How many nights I've spent clutching my knees against the floor I buy

Precooked Rice

And I'm not that nice to myself

I don't wanna show you what it's like behind my smile

So I'll just keep my thoughts at bay and kiss you for a while let's

Keep our lips busy

Get a little dizzier

Blurring this illusion that I've built for you

Don't shatter it now

Don't shatter it now

You can buy me jade

We can hope it grows but

Today I'm still too petrified to genuinely show you who I am

But I'll eat your homemade jam

I don't wanna cry for you, won't open up that door

So I'll just get my things and drive away, just like before

I'll try to keep myself busy

Stop getting dizzy, I'll hide behind this cold, aloof illusion

So for the sake of settling confusion

It's over now

It's over now