GOODB(i)YE

Mid morning mid November

Thought I felt footsteps down the hall

They walk straight to the tiny shower

I hear him curse as he slips

Knocking empty shampoo bottles to the floor

I wanna fill my cup

With the feelings I'm hiding

As I watch the sweat drip down

Down the small of his spine

I am so tired of panic attacks

So sick of lying right through my teeth

Man fuck the self loathing

Watch me wave it all goodbye

I know you're still angry with your father

And you're so tired of being sad

You say you feel guilty when you miss him

But now somehow

Carbon monoxide doesn't really smell so bad

I wanna fill my cup

With the feelings I'm hiding

As I watch the sweat drip down

Down the small of his spine

I am so tired of panic attacks

So sick of lying right through my teeth

Man fuck the self loathing

Watch me wave it all goodbye

Waiting for someone to tell the truth I took

23 years to tell myself I'm

Waiting for someone, waiting for no-one

Blaming everybody else I'm

Waiting for someone to tell the truth I took

23 years to tell myself I'm

Waiting for someone, waiting for no-one

Hurting everybody else