Driving With My Eyes Closed

Sun's out so I'm driving with my eyes closed I got lost like 5 backroads ago Estranged from my friends and family so I slow down 'cause I'm never going home Got caught drinking liquor on the boardwalk So I found a bar and took some shots Blacked out and fought all of my friends But friendship's the only thing I lost I dove right off the deep end But I landed in the shallow I'm not scared of sh*t except the monsters in the shadows I lost myself in your dorm room And I still haven't found it Getting consumed with boredom I feel like I'm surrounded I'm feeling oh so pathetic I think it's time that I'm selfish It's hard when I'm always hurting Somebody get me a medic Somebody get me a stretcher I smoked too much now my lungs hurt Tired of being a loser Imagine if I was cooler Distractions keep me from screaming So no one knows that I'm bleeding Developed a fear of dreaming What is life? whats the reason? Will I ever be content Before I take my last breath? I'm trying not to think 'bout death But there's something about eternal rest