Li(f)e, No More

Whether I fly or fall

Let each line I design be in highest form

Let these novels jotted with the rhymes I vomit

Be a balm for the lives that I might've harmed

With every lie recorded

Dear father I can’t lie no more

About life no more

How’d a life so flawed spawn rhyming this pure?

And this flow?

This flawless force?

This lion-esque torrent?

Exposes every orifice of mine, and it’s torment

Every hole you’ll find is my design and it’s horrid

Vile and abhorrent from a style this gorgeous

How did I fly afoul of the Bible and Torah

Land lying amongst scoundrels entwining with whores and?

Lord...

I’m dying to sort this

I’m tired of losing allies on account of my horseshxt

Squandered so much time realigning my stories

That I’ve long lost sight of my calling

Lost sight of Your glory

Lost sight of my focus

Even thought I lost sight of my hope and

Even thought I lost sight my origin

Lost a wife and I still couldn't stall it

Lost sight of Your light and the voice to call You

I’d lost all

Until my arrival back home

And found solace between the thighs of a violet storm

And when that quelled

Found my voice in the sound of Loneliness

The deafening silence aroused my soul, so

I promise on the spine that upholds me

I promise on the fires of the losses that forged me

I promise on the Chi that restored me

On Orion, the Swordsman, on the right eye of Horus

I promise, dear father, I won’t lie no more

Tell momma I won’t lie no more

Tell Sha I won’t lie no more

Jezzy and Jon