Phobophobia

Restricted patient

Or so they say

I choose to stay here, phobic fears, nerve endings eaten away

I'm out of touch

With all in sight

Don't close my eyes, I fear that death will come collecting tonight

Distracted ruins

Oh can't you see?

I'm nervous, frightened, tormented by everything

You'll never know

Just what it's like

You can't imagine what's disturbing, what is eating my mind

In constant paranoia

Keeps me looking over my shoulder

I'm hiding 'til the fear is over

Running down the street

I'll never look to see just what it might be

That I fear so much in my life

Or in my death

Doctor, help me

At any cost

Please make it go away before I am totally lost

Inside a shell

And locked away

No fear can touch me, when I scream, none can hear what I say

But is it gone

Or did it stay?

My phobophobic thoughts, God, will they ever go away?

And leave me be

I doubt they will

The disease of fear has got me and it's in for the kill

The fracture of my mind

It will destroy me slowly

In the end, I lay there breathless

Six feet under, dirt will cover

Headstone reads: "His was a fractured mind"

"Less human being destroyed by fear of everything that could be"

I've witnessed fear

For all it's worth

I can't imagine someone causing its own birth

The human hell

Or so we say

But is it fear the only thing that we are prey?

In life, not death

Define to me

A state of coldness life where I can be free

Of mortal choice

Burden of life

A questioned fate of fear or am I to die?

I've seen now some of what I've done

A disease now once delivered

On those poor souls I pressure on

Unearthly cold they'll shiver

Insertion of fear a blood laced tear

I draw from cowards breaking

Psychiatrists I tie in knots

This mind in fear is taken

Doctor, help me

At any cost

Please make it go away before I am totally lost

Inside a shell

And locked away

No fear can touch me, when I scream, none can hear what I say

But is it gone

Or did it stay?

My phobophobic thoughts, God, will they ever go away?

And leave me be

I doubt they will

The disease of fear has got me and it's in for the kill

The fracture of my mind

It will destroy me slowly

In the end, I lay there breathless

Six feet under, dirt will cover

Headstone reads: "His was a fractured mind"

"Less human being destroyed by fear of everything that could be"