Sidelines

I'm not afraid of anything at all

Not dying in a fire, not being broke again

I'm not afraid of living on a fault line

'Cause nothing ever shakes me, nothing makes me cry

Not a plane going down

In the ocean and drowning

Watched the world from the sidelines

Had nothing to prove

Till you came into my life

Gave me something to lose

Now I know what it feels like

To want to go outside

Like the shape of my outline

I'm not afraid of going back to school

I gave it up the first time but I'll try again

I'm not afraid of getting older

Used to fetishize myself

Now I'm talking to my houseplants

Not of being alone

In a room full of people

Watching the world from the sidelines

Had nothing to prove

Till you came into my life

Gave me something to lose

Now I know what it feels like

To want to go outside

Like the shape of my outline

And I used to think

You could hear the ocean in a seashell

What a childish thing