i still say goodnight

you stopped saying, "goodnight"

that was the first sign that you were letting go

now you don’t see me the same way

you’re looking at me like i’m only getting old

and i

shoulda known

that you were only scared to be alone

i couldn’t say much

i was distracted

you seemed so anxious like you had something to hide

tell me, "it’s nothing"

i don’t believe you

i know that look you get when you’re about to lie

i feel so stupid

‘cause i still say, "goodnight"

i always tried to impress you

got so dressed up and no you never seemed to care

your ridiculous expectations

lack of validations, was never fucking fair

and i

shoulda known

that you were only scared to be alone

i couldn’t say much

i was distracted

you seemed so anxious like you had something to hide

tell me, "it’s nothing"

i don’t believe you

i know that look you get when you’re about to lie

i feel so stupid

‘cause i still say, "goodnight"