Dishonest Smile

I don't have a mask for this place

This isn't a time when I can just fix my face

To hold back the tears is too great a fight

So heaven forbid, you just might lose sleep too tonight

I can't be the good wife and the good mom

The good daughter, the good friend

I can't be the organizer and the empathizer

Heal myself and you and them

I tried to be convenient for ya

But I failed to win that fight

So if you could

Just hold me tonight

If you could

Hold me tonight

I don't know just what I'm supposed to ask for

Does the joy really come in the morning?

I'd almost rather cry on this cold floor and watch you snore

I still have to brave tomorrow morning

With a dishonest smile

(Smile)

With a dishonest smile

(Smile)

I admit that I'm in rare form

I'm having to mourn the fact that I'm losing my old norms

I no longer care what I look like

So heaven forbid you'll see this puffy face tonight

I don't know just what I'm suppose to ask for

(I don't know what I'm suppose to ask for)

Does the joy really come in the morning?

(I hope it really comes in the morning)

I'd almost rather cry on this cold floor and let you snore

'Cause I still have to brave tomorrow morning

With a dishonest smile

(Smile)

With a dishonest smile

(Smile)

Yeah, I'm nothing more

Than a beautiful mess sometimes

It's like I've been shot back

To the age of five

My body is aching

But I don't need your pity

I just need love, love, love

'Cause I don't know exactly what I'm asking for

I just need joy to come this morning, yeah

'Cause I can't stay down on this cold floor anymore

'Cause life goes on in the morning

I don't know just what I'm suppose to ask for

(Ain't nothing changed)

(You know it is, every year)

Does the joy really come in the morning?

(Same people, different situations)

I'd almost rather cry on this cold floor and let you snore

(But I need a break sometimes)

'Cause I still have to brave tomorrow morning

(Help me, give me rest)

('Cause this is a dishonest smile)

With a dishonest smile

(Smile)

With a dishonest smile (Dishonest smile)

(Smile)

Come hold me

You said that you'd be here in any weather

Ooh, should I wake you up?

Come help me smile

(Smile)

I can't get up

I can't get myself up, I need to smile

(Smile)

Please, tell me what to do

Just help me (Smile)

Help me feel less emotion

(Smile)

Please