All I Had

Do you fall or fly?

When there’s no one left to fight

And your will is spent

Searching for some sanctuary

Some shelter

When all you had

Has all been dashed

Such a picturesque whirlwind I broke

Still holding on to warm ripples of hope

But if I’m honest

Loving at a hundred miles an hour

Cost all I had

To land intact

And all in vain

If nothing can displace

This deep malaise

Oh, my home is left in ruins

And I know I don’t want to live alone

Lost all I had

All I had

To heal instead

Feel like a teen again

Nothing feels real again

Thirty percent gone

Two years over

Losing control again

Square one again

Makes no difference

Trying to keep my mind strong

Thirty percent gone

Thirty percent gone