Northern Lights

You showed me meditation

Said it'd change me, I thought I needed to

'Cause your mum said I had growing up to do

In April, I walked your way

I left my friends behind 'cause I didn't think you liked them

And it was cute that kids love you

Bye, bye and by next July

My therapist will say I'm fine

I'll go to see the Northern lights

If I combine the flights, it's cheaper that way

I'll walk around in New York rain

And no one will ever break me down again

On show days, it showed me quaking

I fumbled words, I lost my place

And I was waiting for someone to see straight through

In every conversation

I said, "I missed my friends", what a normal thing

You said I'd learn to be alone like you

Bye, bye and by next July

My therapist will say I'm fine

I'll go to see the Northern lights

If I combine the flights, it's cheaper that way

I'll walk around in New York rain

And no one will ever break me down again

Then I was standing with the glue and tape

I was panicking, my colour had been changed

A thousand drops of paint, you dripped and you didn't know you did

You didn't know

You've been calling my mum, what did you say?

I think you needed control to ease your brain

I didn't get it 'till I walked away

'Cause you made me breakfast, you cheered my name

I kept thinking of polar sunshine

To keep my wonder, but something was wrong

A battle had come and all the horses and everyone was gone

Wiggled my way, I put back the pieces

My friends, I'm sorry for the moments I missed

I've painted over the glue and tape

And tomorrow your name won't haunt me like this

Bye, bye and by next July

My therapist will say I'm fine

I'll go to see the Northern lights