After the Pain

It done been a couple months now

God been letting blessings up now

The homie told me I was drunk in love

I said, "Shit, I was strung out"

People told me we should double back

But I don't really see the luck in that

Now, I'm the one all the women been bustin' at

They shoot they shot, I bust back

But it seems I can't love no more

Honestly, I'on trust these hoes

To be real, I wanna start a fam

I'm too trill to be doing it for the 'Gram

I guess my pride got me kinda in a jam

But I don't give a damn, I'm the man

I know they wanted me to scream, "Fuck it", but that ain't me

I just went from being in love to having love for ya

Baby, you was my rider

Baby, you was my ride or die

Baby, you was my rider

Baby, you was my ride or die

Now, I'm just thumbing through the check

Thumbing through the check

Kinda because of you, I'm becoming the best

I won't lie, there's been nights I ain't slept

I won't lie, it's been meals I've missed

Lost focus, almost lost it all

Regained my composure and restarted to ball

On some drunk nights, I reach out and call

At least, the ones when I'm feeling they long

Baby, you was my rider

Baby, you was my ride or die

Baby, you was my rider

Thumbing through the check

Kinda because of you, I'm becoming the best

Baby, you was my ride or die

Thumbing through the check

Kinda because of you, I'm becoming the best

Man, it seem, when our life went digital

Business start slipping through

We start drinking more

Fights got physical

I started having visions of other men kissing you

I still try to fight for you

Guess I wasn't getting through

Still down to ride for you

Still right here for you

No matter if I don't hear from you, shit

But I guess my soft side is still my downfall

'Cause I still let you vibe when the vibe off

Thought about us last time I was in Bal Harbor

But it'll be a long time before I'm Chanel shopping

Huh, you made it hard for these women

Especially ones who I feel all about the image

And, not to sound innocent and just point the finger

It probably was my fault and I probably won't admit it

And the way I was living was probably whack

But you won't get a **** back like that

Baby, you was my rider

Baby, you was my ride or die

Baby, you was my rider

Thumbing through the check

Kinda because of you, I'm becoming the best

You was my ride or die

Thumbing through the check

Kinda because of you