sunstruck

I'm not tired

I'm just wired

For late nights staying up

Talking till the sun gets stuck

Back up in the sky

Reminding me

I'm still alive

I'd been looking

For hope in a song or

A run or a deep breath

A punch or a two-step

Beat that could carry me

Away from absurdity

You'd been smoking lots

And living in your head

'Cause at least you'd know

Where you last left it

I'm left waiting for you to wake up

But you're still dreaming of your next cup

But it's never quite enough

You pour it out

But nothing will come

From an ever-flowing cup

When you're too fucked

To fill it back up

Left you alone

Or I did my best

Not to water a garden

That didn't want to live

There were signs of life

But it wasn't my land

And I had my own to tend

And I'd forgotten it

Well I played it back in my head

Again and again

Not to do any harm

Just to try and understand

Couldn't find a path that

Made much sense

Just some half-finished thoughts

And a couple new plants

I went looking for myself by myself

And it wasn't close to easy

But it sure did help

And my heart kept keeping time

Wondering where you were

And what was on your mind

But it's never quite enough

I can think it and write it

But it's hard speaking up

I don't mind the sweet and wasted time

The taste of your lips

And your smirk when you lie

But I try

Not to get in the way

And I try

So hard

I evaporate

A year passes and some seeds take root

Your garden is growing

And mine's growing too

And the work's not always fun

But it's better than staring

At the weeds and the mud

We left behind some pain

To get to the magic thing