Ketamine for Breakfast

Now look here, in the house opposite

Black gate posts with a concrete frog squatting on top of it

Through the hallway, ancient wallpaper, nicotine gold

Up the stairs, rickety, loaded with history

Here, in the top flat, flowers on the windowsill

Little breeze fluttering the petals as they stare out

At the city streets

Gemma is awake, what woke her?

Open eyes, street lights float slowly through broken blinds

She watches as the light plays across the tattered carpet

She holds herself tight in the room's half darkness

It's cold, she wedges her hands underneath her armpits

It's 4:18 and Gemma's thinking

Before I was a adult, I was a little wreck

Peddling whatever I could get my grubby mitts on

Ketamine for breakfast, bad girls were drinking with

I gave 'em puppy dog eyes for the acid on their fingertips

Heads in the basement, lips without faces

Getting feisty, half-baked in a bakery

Eating pastries, desperate for a body who could save me

But I never really wondered what they gave me

Always wanted something else, sweatin' in the dole queue

Spittin' like a villain in the pantomime old shoes

Bad teeth, drinking in the rain with my ghost

Sittin' in the back of the class, comatose

Uh, feelings on my back in the dark hold me close

But you never held, I did some things I swore I'd never

Till that night you tried to kill me

Run me down with your car in the snow

I didn't realize I thought you would go

Every day I live lives in the day I wake up in

My dreams are all screamin', oh, fuck, but I'm fine now

Something remains, it's still pullin' me

Yeah, my future is bright, but my past tryna ruin me

Tried to change it, but I know

If you're good to me, I will let you go

Tried to fight it, but I'm sure

If you're bad to me, I will like you more

I saw some things when I was young

That made me who I would become

I feel them with me every day

'Cause if you try and run away

They run beside you place for place

Trip you up and drag your face

Freedom out of every waste

They chancin' every bit of taste

Heart is sprayed up with the names

Of all my friends who lost their way

Doesn't change, it all remains

It takes my strength, and gives me shame

All I want is someone great

To make me everything I ain't

But the only ones for me

Are the ones that shouldn't be

Even though I'm doing good

I'm working hard, my work is strong

Might be fun just for a while

To go back to where my hurt is from

Rinse myself through emptiness

And push my body close to

Anybody who can recognize the presence of my ghost

Tried to change it, but I know

If you're good to me, I will let you go

Tried to fight it, but I'm sure

If you're bad to me, I will like you more

Tried to change it, but I know

If you're good to me, I will let you go

Tried to fight it, but I'm sure

If you're bad to me, I will like you more