Ungrateful

I don't wanna seem ungrateful, God

But I don't wanna be here

I got some things to get off my chest

But maybe it's best I keep it a secret

31st December, the 1st of Jan

Same shit, I don't care 'bout the new year

New house somewhere that ain't poverty driven

It's mad in the place that I grew in

Yo, served a pregnant lady, it fucked with my head

Couple things I regret tryna earn a wage

48 laws, one book that I read

So if I repent, can I turn the page?

Gotta get rid of bad vibes

Anti-clockwise, gotta burn the sage

I'll say with it chest but I know some things locked in

I prefer not to say

I fucked up, I'm admitting it

I got no ego, I got no shame

I swallow my pride and say that I'm missing it

Creep in the changing room at school

And thief from the kids that are privileged

Stolen clothes with a rip in it

Also a stolen phone, no sim in it

Now I got Ps I give a lot back

No charity work, tryna write off tax

Feds got me on a driving ban

In the passenger seat 'til my license back

Ghost and fly off the map

Try get my mind off rap

I get some sort of survivors guilt

When I see YM still supplying crack

This life don't come with retiring plans

It'll come to an end in unfortunate ways

No such thing as positive thinking

When you're locked in, it feel like a maze

Often lose faith and forget to pray

You don't wanna land on the wing with the guys

Why? Cah they might melt your face

Cuz got hit with a 8, why?

Why would he care 'bout some extra days?

I don't wanna seem ungrateful, God

But I don't wanna be here

I got some things to get off my chest

But maybe it's best I keep it a secret

31st December, the 1st of Jan

Same shit, I don't care 'bout the new year

New house somewhere that ain't poverty driven

It's mad in the place that I grew in

I ain't been home in some weeks

I seek when a man's in need

I got a family tree to feed

I see dead people in my sleep

I see broke people on the feed

Talk is cheap, freedom of speech, I guess

But they ain't even got no Ps

Got free Wi-Fi, they ain't got 4G

I wouldn't be able to do what I do

If it weren't for the man before me

I show respect where it's due

Where would I be, if I never met YB?

Giggs, Ghetts, Chip, Skep

Konan, Krept, Kano, Dev

Stormz, Hus, Dave

A couple of names, even DBE

My mum lost faith in her son

When I left school with no GCSEs

Told shawty "Just 'cause I grew up with nuttin

Don't mean that I'm easy to please"

When you need a handout you don't get help

Why they all wanna help, I ain't even in need

Had one score for an hour studio time

I couldn't even lease the beat

Do not disturb me when I'm recording

My voice sound clearer than ever

Remember the mic distorting

I grew in a different era

More action, less talking

He said I'm a dead man walking

One in your head, there ain't no respawning

Alright

I don't wanna seem ungrateful, God

But I don't wanna be here

I got some things to get off my chest

But maybe it's best I keep it a secret

31st December, the 1st of Jan

Same shit, I don't care 'bout the new year

New house somewhere that ain't poverty driven

It's mad in the place that I grew in