The Calling

Back then I was dauntless

And dawn could never know

And my weakness made me weep less

Than I would ever show you

I’d burn so bright it blinded

Now I know that light guided me here

I walked into the river

To wring those embers from my broken heart and broken liver

You’ll never get your dinner if you don’t learn how to get along

And a fox somewhere is hiding

That light I thought was blinding brought me here

I look into the waters

And see a face I don’t understand

We’re both unwanted daughters

But there’s more than water in these autumn hands

I look into the waters and see a face I don’t recognise

Who’s this

(Who are you)

What changed I ask

So strange, she replies

Shoulder the sky

Open those eyes

There’s a kind of calling

Calling

I can’t wait to show you

How much I know you can be

Just let the rain come

Let the rain come down, down, darling

Can’t you hear it howling you

It’s calling, calling

Back then I wasn’t hopeful

But now my ink’s blood red not black

And I’ll blink like ripping envelopes

In the hopes that you’ll write back

And on the banks of that river

I shiver as a fox stands frozen

And I close them, I close them, I close my eyes

‘Cos I’m between that just one more and drank too much again

And I promise you I’ll write I love you

With my fingers on your sleeping hand

And when that fox howls I’ll howl with it

In its cries I’ll find an end

And when I think I’m fine you’ll visit

And then you happen to me, you happen to me all over again

In the waters I see a face I don’t want look back

Do you like my dress, it’s got pockets

The rocks beneath my feet begin to crack

Oh I look into the waters

Long ago that current caught us and we tried

I tried I really fucking tried

But the rain kept coming down

I watch that woman drown

Shoulder the sky

Open those eyes

There’s a kind of calling

Calling

I can’t wait to show you

How much I know you can be

Just let the rain come

Let the rain come down, down, darling

Can’t you hear it howling you

It’s calling, calling

In the rainfall