HOW I'VE BEEN (feat. Joy Crooks, JNR Williams, Loyle Carner & Kojey Radical)

Sunday offering no communion but we're breaking our bread Sip your supermote, string vest and your fro hard was never there Be good in your bimmer, never give me weight Set in stone, not your moat, I will never trade Have you ever wondered Did you ever wonder How I've been How I've been Have you ever wondered Did you ever wonder How I've been How I've been Said you're gonna call but you never called Said you would be there, wasn't there at all Said you'd make it fair, we were playing ball, uh Said you'd pick me up on any day, got fooled, trust I had to pick myself up, I held my head, had to teach myself stuff How to shave, how to keep my nails cut How the people in the grave wish they could've held us, huh And now it's something that my mother tells us Love and don't fade even when the hell does You were magic and yo, I wish you could've held up To the visions in my head of a father unstuck, yo But yo, I guess it's just luck If a father really cares trying to get a quick nut, uh But still I call, trying to tell him what's up, uh Cause I could never give it up, uh Have you ever wondered Did you ever wonder How I've been How I've been Have you ever wondered Did you ever wonder How I've been How I've been The way mama raised me never felt like daddy missing Never let me question or mention if daddy listened Focus on what he did, never what daddy didn't Cause for many young boys that's all they get to envision Listen, the fathers in my house were women Put their strength inside of me and put their soul in the kitchen Working the night shifts so we ain't skipping our dinners Always gave me a choice and put my faith in the mission Well, maybe he was scared, I was scared too But walking through the fire is something that dads do If I don't break the chains, no change in the cycle Now I have the chance, there's nothing I won't do Dads saw themselves as providers Of the type of wealth you only measure in finance All I ever wanted was some loving reminders That you still think about me when your soul getting tired Have you ever wondered Did you ever wonder How I've been How I've been Have you ever wondered Did you ever wonder How I've been How I've been Time for the woman, look what the wound done made you a father Speaking in mother tongue, we keep putting out fire But if you tell me again, I should smile I'm your east, I'm your south, I'm your quick to the nose Wash your mouth when you wish to go where women die I could be handsome, shit, I feel handsome Another day in the life of the story Takes you a daughter to realize our glory I wish you knew, you've always been half of us too Have you ever wondered Did you ever wonder How I've been How I've been Have you ever wondered Did you ever wonder How I've been How I've been Have you ever wondered Did you ever wonder How I've been How I've been Have you ever wondered Did you ever wonder How I've been How I've been