Trans Mantra

I wake up early to get things started

I do my makeup and I do my hair

I practice walking and speaking softly

So it looks easy, as if I don't care

On bad days I take it slowly

On good days I'm up and out in an hour

The past is over, it's just behind me

It's getting closer but it holds no power

I don't want to know

I don't want to know what they're saying about me

I don't want to know

I don't want to show that it devastates me

I'm living somewhere nobody goes to

I'm speaking in a language nobody talks

The window broken, a cold wind blows through

My soul a series of electrical shocks

A failed equation, a hypothetic

A woman standing but constructed to fall

Existing as a minimalism

Only just barely as a woman at all

I don't want to know

I don't want to know what they're saying about me

I don't want to know

I don't want to show that it devastates me

(I don't want to) I don't want to know

(I don't want to know) I don't want to know what they're saying about me

(I don't want to) I don't want to know

(I don't want to know) I don't want to go where the demons breed

(I don't want to)

(I don't want to know)

(I don't want to)

(I don't want to know)

(I don't want to)

(I don't want to go)