Shotgun

If I'm being honest

I'm gonna lie to you

When you ask me how I'm doing

I'll use all the words we both know

You want me to

If I'm being honest

I've been thinking 'bout the day

Where I don't feel anything at all

And I don't fear anything at all

I'ma gonna go, gonna load my shotgun

Point that barrel right where it hurts

Ain't no telling where I'll go after

Might not be better but it can't get worse

I cried out

In silent desperation, I cried out

I called your name

My God, my God

Why have you forsaken me? I cried out

But my words have now abandoned me

I'ma gonna go, gonna load my shotgun

Point that barrel right where it hurts

Ain't no telling where I'll go after

Might not be better but it can't get worse

And I could tell you but you can't imagine

That first breath from the edge of death's chasm

You ain't cried like that since you come out your mother

Only thing holding back the great hereafter

Is bad primers with good timing

I'ma gonna go, gonna load my

Point that barrel right where it hurts

Ain't no telling where I'll go after

Might not be better but it can't get worse