Therapy

Okay Nick, so I understand you have some concerns that you'd like to discuss today So whenever you're ready I'm happy for you to voice whatever it is you'd like to talk about All I ever, wanted was a normal life never got it I remember, never let it out years before i'd vomit on a beat I kept it bottled stepped in denial when I was on the creep Then somethin' happened, I just snapped, and it poured outta me Cause of the life it gotta be, the Southside in me But I grew up a little different than alot of peers Thats the same shit that made me who I am and got me here I'm realer, motherfucker you been a fraud I am still a kid at heart, similar to simbas start Now kill it, had to grow up quick, I didnt have time for my feelins' But fake love is all I ever got, nobody was willin' To show up, and show out, was tore up, was tore down But hold up, where they now? This is what I predicted, soon as I got this vision Unstoppable its history, i've had alot of wishin' over the years I shed alot of tears, remember when my mom got all weird It was probably somethin' she was going through, yea true But took it out on me instead, and left a permanent bruise And kept me down in my head See when you love someone so much you value what they said Then treated actions like words, so im gone I moved in wit' my dad but had different plans all along He wanted me in college, so I thought That's what I wanted to, but couldnt concentrate I just focused on what I lacked But was it love from my mom, or was it love from my dad I started thuggin out, maybe it was for attention Never the drug route, unless it was my attention Til' I quit it, I aint felt normal in a minute Since a kid I been itchin' to find a better way I met a girl then she turned my dark into better days Every second I spent with her it was a getaway Another moment to escape, maybe to step away From my current position, in life Finally feel like I did something right I've invested time in this I'll protect it I was wrong, I showed my problems from my past and she absorbed 'em all Until she couldnt, I was focused on work I know thats why it didnt work and we were also immature I was such a different person, when she was still around Back when I was tryna rap, without a flow and I made her proud, she just a lesson now Slept wit' my boss behind my back, and for that hoe You dont get a second round I know my worth bitch im a king and queens dont mess around That's why you got left in Cali, I had to let it out The cats outta the bag, durastic measures takin' Like watchin' all my friends self medicatin' Cause of some insecurity or somethin' they heard on the radio But say its just to party, and thats not the way to go Partly dont know how to deal with they problems Don't know how to resolve 'em Resort to sniffin' and poppin' when they feel it has gotten To a place where they outta options but thats never the case So the next time that they ask me, if im find whats on my mind Maybe they'll press play on this, and rewind a couple times and im gone And im gone And I know Life goes on, but I gotta let this go now And I know life goes on, I cannot let this show now And I know Life goes on, but I gotta let this go now And I know life goes on, I cannot let this show now My past, i'm replayin' it out And I hate what I found It's been weighin', me down Gettin' faded like wow Tell them pray for me now Life is crazier wow Life is crazier wow And I know Life goes on, but I gotta let this go now And I know life goes on, I cannot let this show now And I know Life goes on, but I gotta let this go now And I know life goes on, I cannot let this show now This album is dedicated to anyone who crossed me While battlin' myself at times, I almost lost me Permanent while trying to find who I was as a person Fired up but never takin off constantly workin' Against myself, never occurred I may need them for help But foolish pride in my eyes I couldnt accept myself While watchin' them strive, yea everyone except myself No accountability could amount to the childish filled in me Scared to make mistakes, valued opinions that weren't real to me Starin' at these fakes tryin' to fit in and it was killin' me Opinion of myself was adopted by those I kept around Definition by experience and then I hit the ground Defined myself by who they thought I was, not who I am and now Never let them in again you know I had to let this out I'll never let them in again, you know I had to let this out