Denial

Today my heart is beating out of habit

Today I’m trying not to be so manic

So dramatic, like everybody panic

Take every cannon aim them at the ground and just shoot the planet

 

I saw a cop murder a man while I just watched

Imagine what they’re doing while I'm not

And I am so cut off that I don’t really see the half of it

It makes you feel ashamed to be a part of it

It makes you want to scream and start an argument

It makes you wanna bring it all down and just start again

It makes you wanna take what you got bottled up and stuff a sock in it like they said

But instead you just spark it up

And toss a Molotov for every Nazi cop on your fucking block to watch it all erupt

It makes you wanna flip every squad car in the parking lot

Or it makes you want to play the deer hunter waiting for the buck to stop

Silently it makes you want to cry

It makes me wonder why a man would kneel upon another man’s neck

Not to mention someone that he swore he would protect

For seven minutes straight, while he begged you for his breath

And you don't even flinch while you sentence him to death

No threat, unarmed, face down, cuffed

Gave you everything he had but that was not enough

Oh you judge, jury and executioner?

Oh you judge during the execution huh?

I hardly comment on a lotta stuff

I bottle it up, worried, like, I am not really smart enough

Who gives a fuck what I think? What does it all matter?

I'm the ‘hoverboard rapper’, go ask somebody more, blacker

While neo-Nazis rally like the third Reich

While a child is run down and killed over a dirt bike

It’s like, that ain’t my lane to go and react to it

Can’t I just be funny? Keep making money off black music?

Can’t I just stay comfortable writing a bunch of dick jokes

In my building while they kill black children outside my window?

A cop murders a black man in front of a crowd

Now imagine what happens when nobody is around

    

Yeah someone needs to call it out, but I don’t

I’ll just wait here for the fall out, denial