Losing Patience

I was looking forward to this day for so long

I had it all planned out

I was hoping it'd all work out

I was losing patience

You know it's never been my best trait

Counting minutes, hours, counting days

Then it dawned on me

Unpredictabilty

I told myself everything's just fine

You worry too much, it's gonna eat you alive

I was looking forward to this day for so long

I had it all planned out

I was hoping it'd all work out

Will it all work out

Now I feel exposed

Like a black light on the wall in a darkened room

All the dirt appears

You can see my fears

I don't want to let my guard down

You know I never had the feeling

That you would prey on my insecurities

You know I never had the feeling

That you would prey on these insecurities I have

Why is this wait taking so long

Counting minutes, hours, counting days

I'm losing patience

Don't think this means I'm walking away

I won't let fear get the best of me

Now it's up to me

I wouldn't change a thing

(DON'T THINK THIS MEANS I'M WALKING AWAY)