Used To Be

I'm sorry that I showed up late

Ain't been keepin' track of time

I got so much on my plate

Trying not to lose my mind

Sorry if I said some shit that I mean, yeah

I'm just trying to get back to the friend that I used to be

I'm sorry I don't let you in

It's a little dark inside

What would happen if you saw

Everything behind these eyes?

I've seen some things, I swear to God

I wish that I couldn't see, yeah

I'm just trying to get back to the lover I used to be

'Cause I'm throwin' punches at demons I can't even see

And I'm puttin' trust into things that I don't believe

And sometimes when I look in the mirror, it ain't even me

I'm just trying to get back to the person I used to be

I'm sorry that I woke you up

Know I shouldn't do these drugs

Only you could understand

Just how hard I am to love

I know that you can still see the happy child in me

I'm just trying to get back to the son that I used to be

'Cause I'm throwin' punches at demons I can't even see

And I'm puttin' trust into things that I don't believe

And sometimes when I look in the mirror, it ain't even me

I'm just trying to get back to the person I used to be

Yeah, I'm just trying to get back to the person I used to be