Awake for the Sunrise

I didn't want to be awake for the sunrise

But my heart wouldn't let me rest

I didn't want to see the light of the morning

With an aching in my chest

So does fire beget fire

As a warning? As a test?

I only wanted to know you better

I only thought that I knew you best

I didn't think I was a terrible liar

But I am when I need it most

Making a sorry attempt at compersion

With a hand halfway down my throat

So does life carry forth

If the station is remote?

Hope is still keeping my head above water

'Til the moment before I choke

There is a future where we're resting easy

On the other side of us

But I'd rather feel the full wrath of destruction

Than remember the things I've done

I gave up on that life

As I gave myself to you

And I deserve it, the very worst of it

I deserve it, I know I do

And I deserve it, the very worst of it

I deserve it, I know I do