I'm Only Me (When I'm Not Sober)

I just got home

It's 3 a.m.

I must confess

For I have sinned but

Tomorrow night I'ma do it again, again

I've been obsessed

With stupid men

Little depressed

But then again

Maybe it's just ‘cause

I'm making bad decisions

'Cause

I'm only me when I'm not sober

And I've been drunk since last October

I take a walk out in the rain, the rain

But it just doesn't feel the same, the same, the same

I'm only me when I'm not sober

I'm blacked out when the party's over

I take a walk out in the rain, the rain

But it just doesn't numb the pain

I'm only me when I'm not sober

Mmm, mmm

I'm all alone

Don't have no friends

I'm always home but

Can't pay my rent

It ain't a joke ‘cause I'm broke

And I smoke but I'm tryna quit, quit

I got a problem

And it ain't healthy

I call my mama

She tries to help me

But I don't care much about the consequences

'Cause

I'm only me when I'm not sober

And I've been drunk since last October

I take a walk out in the rain, the rain

But it just doesn't feel the same, the same, the same

I'm only me when I'm not sober

I'm blacked out when the party's over

I take a walk out in the rain, the rain

But it just doesn't numb the pain

Oh, I fall asleep

On a bed with no sheets but

It's not a disease

It ain't addiction

If I can kick it whenever I please

‘Cause

I'm only me when I'm not sober

And I've been drunk since last October

I take a walk out in the rain, the rain

But it just doesn't feel the same, the same, the same

I'm only me when I'm not sober

I'm blacked out when the party's over

I take a walk out in the rain, the rain

But it just doesn't numb the pain

I'm only me when I'm not sober

Mmm, mmm