Fated to Despair

A sigh of stale air echoes

A cut down to the bone

Serrated blade digs deeper

As blood and trust flows

No good deeds gone unpunished

No saint left un-betrayed

The sun rises to another sleepless and unrelenting day

A familiar chorus plays as a bridge burns again

More faith and hope misalign

A tired lesson learned again

Faith in God? Failed

Faith in self? Failed

Faith in others? Failed

Faith in salvation? A joke

Cries for help: ignored

All outreach: ignored

My emotions: scorned

Message received: worthless

Waiting with bated breaths for opportunity to knock

Silence, thick and viscous

Absence, tangible

Effort is unacknowledged

All given, none got

The sun sets on another empty and valueless day

No eyes weep for me

Seeing only what's to gain

Surprised, despite the repetition

Healing wounds ripped open again

Faith in God? Failed

Faith in self? Failed

Faith in others? Failed

Faith in salvation? A joke

Cries for help: ignored

All outreach: ignored

My emotions: scorned

Message received: worthless

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Cause and effect

So, what's the reason for this?

Predetermined to fail

Destined to ache

Fated to despair

And in the end, it's all for nothing

A lost cause

There's nothing to be gained, except perdition

All efforts to improve only increase the pain

Each day, I feel I'm moving farther from the goal

Things cannot, and will not, get any better

My muscles atrophy before the cancer spreads

And skin rots

The greatest lie ever told: "Lean on me when you're weak."

Delusions hammered home

The end light seems so bleak

Faith in God? Failed

Faith in self? Failed

Faith in others? Failed

Faith in salvation? A joke

Cries for help: ignored

All outreach: ignored

My emotions: scorned

Message received: worthless