2HONEST (feat. SAINt JHN)

Loneliness speaks through my smile

It sings the darkest lullaby

Luh-luh-luh-luh-luh-luh-luh

Luh-luh-luh-luh-luh-luh-luh

I call a 5150 on myself

That's how you know I need help

I call a 5150 on myself

That's how you know I need help

Tears of a fallen soldier rollin' down my face, one hand stickin' out of my grave

The whole world left me for dead, Michael Jackson's estate

But I'm too high, I'll never land

A river that knows it's source could never dry, that's why I had to cut out the middle man

Hate from all directions assassinatin' my character

I felt like Malcolm X in J. Edgar Hoover's America

I said the truth and I paid for it, I paid for it

I got on my knees and cried to the Lord, I prayed for it

I had bounties on my head when my sister was in my home

Sleepless nights by the chrome trigger finger next to my dome

Contemplatin' self-destruction, equatin' myself to nothin'

Fixated on my regression, I felt like Benjamin Button

I collapsed in my depression, I just couldn't write for nothin'

When I stared at my reflection all that I felt was disgusted

My confidence evaporated, less than a man, I was emasculated

I turned to violence to be validated

Violated probation again and again

My kin and my friends like what the fuck is up with you fam?

Don't you understand **** want to fuck with you fam?

But you keep fuckin' yourself and that fucks with your fans

Pardon me, my ****, I believed the lie and kept it too honest

The pain behind your eyes, tells me that that's not what you wanted

And it's hard to explain to the people standin' still why you're runnin'

I was runnin' from the absolute savage that I know I'm becomin'

I call a 5150 on myself

That's how you know I need help

I call a 5150 on myself

That's how you know I need help

Do you know what the fuck it feels like to wake up every day in distress

Pissed off at your self neglect, so you just lay in your mess

And people depend on you, got so much shit on your chest

That your train of thought can't seem to find a way to express

I found a notebook in my parents crib from when I was five

I went inside, it said I hate myself and I wanted to die, cried

I couldn't even fathom a child feelin' so lonely

So next time a **** tell you about Vic, say they don't know me

I need to be loved, I need to be loved, I needed to the drugs

'Cause I couldn't do it, I couldn't do it, I was goin' through it

Growin' up I was a product of my biracial confusion

Neither black nor white, I guess that made me translucent

I crushed everything I touched, I fucked every single slut

I couldn't bust, it was a knot in my stomach

I plummet into my dungeon, down in the depths of my darkness

I'm steppin' over my carcass, I'm comin' outta my hatred

Tired of my heart bein' vacant, I made a promise, won't break it

I told my momma we'll make it, I told my gang we gon' make it

They won't give it to us, we'll take it, one thing that is true is my greatness

Promise I won't doubt, I'll believe it, I'm exercisin' my demons, for the last time

Pardon me, my ****, I believed the lie and kept it too honest

The pain behind your eyes tells me that that's not what you wanted

And it's hard to explain to the people standin' still why I'm runnin'

I was runnin' from the absolute tragedy I know I'm becomin'

Well, pardon me, my ****, isn't this the life you said that you wanted

You know the cars movin' fast with a view and the women are stunnin'

And it's hard when you're comin' from the bottom, tryin' not to become it

So I'm runnin' from the absolute savage that I know I'm becomin', becomin', yeah, yeah