Carnival

I wish I was a couple years older

Couple years wiser

Just so I could know your heart

But I know that it would still confuse me anyway

I felt just a few degrees colder

Ever since the day that you left

Spare my soul

Now I can still feel the pieces of my youth just stripped away

What is life but a merry-go-round?

Just circling doubts livin' up in my head

I know that they want me dead

Keep me up when I try to stay down

I try to forget all the things they said

But they won't let me go

I try to fall asleep

But they won't let me dream

I just hope someday we'll come to terms

'Cause I'm falling underneath

And I try so hard to breathe

As this roller coaster kills me

So this goes out to the mind games in my head

You raise hell every night inside of my bed

I don't know where you came from

But I won't play your carnival no more

I wish I was just a little stronger

So they couldn't beat me up

But they did

Now I can still feel the mulch

That they kicked at me pierce my hope

So I dusted off my shoulders and then

Told myself that I could prove it to them

Just tryin' to justify the first taste of feelin' low

I try to fall asleep

But they won't let me dream

I just hope someday we'll come to terms

'Cause I'm falling underneath

And I try so hard to breathe

As this roller coaster kills me

So this goes out to the mind games in my head

You raise hell every night inside of my bed

I don't know where you came from

But I won't play your carnival no more