Lost at Sea

I'm fighting off the force that made this call I kinda feel torn, is it the alcohol? Every time I hit best thing I've done I hit another wall Oh baby I probably shouldn't know the truth Once I fall from the cliff it's hard to start a new It's closer to me than it is to my rear view Damn I think I am scared, will i bounce back soon? I know it Takes time but I cant believe I've been riding out the waves while I'm lost at sea Oh I hope That it shows Oh it It turns out that I can't retrieve Any breath that I mistook when I was off my feet Oh I hope That it shows I can't Fight back with a bottle I'm So full of shit when I just say I'm fine I'm pissed off at my friends online The bitter taste of a black sunshine It's bout the balance how you pace it But maybe I should find a way to just embrace it I really hate to see the color slowly fading I can foresee that theres a mess that it created I know it Takes time but I cant believe I've been riding out the waves while I'm lost at sea Oh I hope That it shows Oh it It turns out that I can't retrieve Any breath that I mistook when I was off my feet Oh I hope That it shows I think I fell out And lost my touch It's way harder now Is it enough? I think I fell out I think I fell out I think I fell out And lost my touch It's way harder now Is it enough? I think I fell out I think I fell out I know it Takes time but I cant believe I've been riding out the waves while I'm lost at sea Oh I hope That it shows Oh it It turns out that I can't retrieve Any breath that I mistook when I was off my feet Oh I hope That it shows