Understanding Forever

I've been so alone

Silenced both my phones

I don't have a home

I got a knife in my side and

Feels like I'm already dying

So what's the fucking point in trying?

I know

I've been so low

I've been paralyzed

By the ghosts in my bedroom

I still dig up bones

But do it all alone

Buried in the ocean

In silence

Waves still crash over my head

I still wanna die, but not just yet

Syntax lies in front of us

All the whiskey and the wine

I could never clean my insides

And I struggle with the truth

Tangle me in chains and it all comes back to you

Water in my lungs, cut the rope, tie the noose

Saw you in the background, and I don't know what to do

I saw those

Words I wrote

I've got salt

In my mouth

I've washed up

And you look through me

I've felt worse (feel the ocean swell)

But not much (I lay in the ocean)

My head is

Underwater

(Cremation Lily)

Underwater

Salt and ashes

Understanding

Forever

Unending