New Halloween

Somehow it's already been a year

Embracing other versions to make this feeling disappear

Now I just feel you everywhere

It coincides with the guilt of knowing that I wasn't there

I was told that you would have known

Told myself I was where you'd want me to be

But it's not that easy

I tried to be your light

Did my best to shine

Nothing I do feels right

As I went out all the time

How has it already been a year?

I skip over songs 'cause they're too hard to hear

Like track two on Benji or What Sarah Said

They just hit too close when I'm already in my head

I was told you were half-asleep

Told myself you would be proud of me

But it's not that easy

I tried to be your light

Did my best to shine

Nothing I do feels right

As I went out all the time

Somehow it's already been a year

You keep finding new ways to make yourself reappear

I hope you never leave me be

I haven't found that courage to listen to your last message to me