Spectacular Now

Yeah, a quick trip to NOLA to catch up with some old friends

I cop the whip and the next day start thinkin' 'bout the next one

Like I ain't satisfied, in my head I start second guessing

Appreciate where you at, I still ain't learn the lesson

Comparin' myself without realizing that I'm the blessed one

My good days to my bad days, they seem to keep on switching

Most artists I know feel like me, but you don't pay attention

Don't talk about alcoholism, don't talk about addiction

Don't talk about mental health, don't talk about depression

Spend hours scrollin' my socials, should I compare myself?

See all the things I don't like in me, I can't bare myself

The voice in my head keeps talking, wish I ain't hear myself

And in the depths of my darkness, sometimes I scare myself

Is it ever good enough? Is the work I put enough?

Is it gonna pop, is it too soft, or is it too hood enough?

Nina Simone never could have been misunderstood enough

It's all there, you just gotta look enough, ya know?

Is it good enough? 'Cause if not now, when will it ever be?

Is it good enough? Somebody show me the remedy

Is it good enough? I remember when you said to me

'Cause if not now, when will it ever be? 'Cause if not now, when will it ever be? Oh no

The questions we ask ourselves, things we don't tallkabout out loud, yeah, uh

I fell out with all my exes, now they're cursin' his name

Chasing ghosts and memories, I think I'm searching in vein

I self-medicate sometimes, they said it works for the pain

Sacrifice the personal life while tryna work for this fame

I put my personal gain before the people I love

And now I'm here, I ask myself, while 20 deep in the club

Who really loves me for me, or who's just here for the clout?

If I had to guess, it's 50-50, just to even it out

I'm rambling, back on topics since they gave me the floor

The point's appreciate the present, not just wait here for more

And I've been starting days with writing lists, what I'm grateful for

We're like some heroes to these kids, I drag my cape on the floor

We lost Nipsey and I cried 100 tears in my room

Let's celebrate our heroes now, not just when they're gone too soon, yeah

Fuck, I'm thinkin' back on him now

But don't get so caught up to where you miss the spectacular now, let's go

Is it good enough? 'Cause if not now, when will it ever be?

Is it good enough? Somebody show me the remedy

Is it good enough? I remember when you said to me

'Cause if not now, when will it ever be? 'Cause if not now, when will it ever be? Oh no