Credits
PERFORMING ARTISTS
Common
Vocals
BJ the Chicago Kid
Vocals
Samora Pinderhughes
Piano
Burniss Travis
Bass
Karriem Riggins
Drums
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Samora Pinderhughes
Songwriter
Karriem Riggins
Songwriter
Burniss Travis
Songwriter
Lonnie Lynn
Songwriter
Bryan James Sledge
Songwriter
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
Samora Pinderhughes
Co-Producer
Karriem Riggins
Producer
Burniss Travis
Co-Producer
Chris Galland
Engineer
Jeremie Inhaber
Assistant Mixing Engineer
Manny Marroquin
Mixing Engineer
Michelle Mancini
Mastering Engineer
Robin Florent
Assistant Mixing Engineer
Scott Desmarais
Assistant Mixing Engineer
Lyrics
[Verse 1]
My first memory, my birthday on a party bus
Pops wasn't there but that wasn't obvious
In moms' arms, in God we trust
Black mama love, everything marvelous
I didn't know what I was missing
Part of a system, pops is gone
Uncle in prison, inside wishing
For a man to teach me about girls and religion
Made my own rendition of grinding and kissing
Weekend calls to my dad, I'd listen
Still I felt distant, distant like love
There's only so far that words could really hug
Didn't want to be a thug, older **** I banged with
I learned a lot from them cuts in the basement
The smell of blunts laced with a little bit of spice
Wise, high ****, giving me advice
We go out and start fights, scuff up our Nikes
Come back and talk crap and shoot a little dice
This is a slice of life in memories
Sitting in my mind vividly, often they visit me
[Verse 2]
I'm just trying to find a way to understand (Trying to understand)
How do I rewind the tape and live in it?
Staying out late and playing in wonderland
Is it in God's plan?
I'm just trying to find a way to understand
[Verse 3]
Metaphors can't explain how far I've came
A young man at work, I made my own lane
Steered away from pain, relied on drive
There's an old saying, "Don't cry, survive"
As I kept building there were cranes in the sky
Certain memories my brain would deny
A tear laid in my eye
I was afraid to reply to the hurt that was calling
It came form the sky
An older play-cousin, of course I trust him
But he was touching where he wasn't supposed to be touching
What's a kid supposed to do, what they going through
What I was going though, don't know who to go to
You wanna tell somebody
In many ways I failed somebody, that somebody was me
Now I'm talking to little Rashid
Incarnated heart, man, you gotta be free
I felt it, when I told my man I would help with
Things he was dealing with, I really hadn't dealt with
Emotions melted, I began to release it
Things you can't change, you can come to peace with
At least get it better for the children of forever
I read the Lord's letter, I forgive our debtors
They don't talk about it, many sharin' this story
Memories of home, shared pain and glory
[Verse 4]
I'm just trying to find a way to understand (Trying to understand)
How do I rewind the tape and live in it?
Staying out late and playing in wonderland
Is it in God's plan?
I'm just trying to find a way to understand
(Said I'm trying to understand, understand, understand, understand)
Written by: Bryan James Sledge, Burniss Travis, Karriem Riggins, Lonnie Lynn, Samora Pinderhughes