So Many Nights

So many nights I prayed that this would just stop

I woke out of my sleep from a sound of a popped lock

My heart would drop to the ground

Maybe the fact that my pops wasn't around

Forced you to found these guys

That would just knock you down or beat you around

I don't know

My innocence was lost back then, not to be found

And in a sense it's like this world was just weighing me down

Leaning it's weight hard on my shoulders

Making my heart less warm and much more colder

A chip off my tooth and a chip on my shoulder

I told y'all that I don't play

I've seen that drama every goddamned day

So go ahead, yip yap away

'Cause now you got a lot to say

Cast your judgements

Cast all your stones

Holding my hand

Holding on to everything I have

'Cause it's slipping away so fast

It is all I have

I was like six then

We ain't have a pot to piss in

While most kids lives consist of shine and glisten

Mine was lined with mischief

A boy flipping, devoid of times

You find joy in reminiscing

It's like time was missing

Years was passing

I was inside while kids was outside laughing

No time for games

Their fake toy planes was crashing

While me? My life was crashing

At night fist fights left

My mom's face smashed in

Her ass blasted

Threw her down a flight of stairs

Alone and scared I stared

At eyes of a man who didn't care

My father was never there

Now I am prepared for this lifetime, that's unfair

This life I fight from the bottom to the top

This life I had to fight for all that I got

It hurts but I still won't stop till my casket drops

Cast your judgements

Cast all your stones

Holding my hand

Holding on to everything I have

'Cause it's slipping away so fast

And it's all I have

Cast your judgements

Cast all your stones

Holding my hand

Holding on to everything I have

'Cause it's slipping away so fast

And it's all I have

Cast your judgements

(So many nights I prayed that this would just stop)

Cast all your stones

Holding my hand

(Just stop)

Holding on to everything I have

(Trying to find a way, but I stop)

'Cause it's slipping away so fast

(Just stop)

And it's all I have