Numbers

1 time if you're playing to win

Give a damn what game you're in

They give a damn what goal you've got

When they know you're not

Who you claim you've been

2 times if you wanna let go

3 times if you wanna be new

So you plot, and you plan

But somehow still never see through

4 times cause I love my past

5 times if I count that charge

It's a must cause a bust couldn't bust

that confidence that remains at large

But I've gotta lay low cause I know cause I know

I grow

I've gotta lay low cause I know cause I know

It'll show

So should I change who I am?

Tell me why should I give a damn

what's thought of me and this ought to be

easy to understand, but it's not

No, no, no it's not

But if you had told me things would have worked out

I would've thought you were full of shit

I did not, did not, not see the light

I did not, did not, not see the light

Since you had said that things could be different

I just assumed that you wanted it

I did not, did not, not see the light

I did not, did not, not see the light

6 times am I in your head?

7 times that I've had that thought

Deep breaths, exhale

But I'm judged and I've had that taught

Who I am?! Shit I've had that fought

The real me?! Shit I've had that wrought

Shaped into what you think is best

But trust, the old me, I've had that sought

8 times to this 8th right here

9 times Imma hit this blunt

But at what point is this need?

And at what point is this want?

And at what point is this gonna catch up to me

and will it slow me down?

10 times for 10 friends from back then

who don't know me now

But if you had told me things would have worked out

I would've thought you were full of shit

I did not, did not, not see the light

I did not, did not, not see the light

Since you had said that things could be different

I just assumed that you wanted it

I did not, did not, not see the light

I did not, did not, not see the light

Out of my comfort zone

Had to get out on my own

and it's got me feeling alone

Like when I'm stuck in my room

No luck only gloom

With no one to fuck,

I'm fucked oh I'm doomed

But happy of it, happy to quit

All of my lyrics are sappy as shit

Collections of thoughts, I used to section them off

Cause people address them as soft

I don't need to do too much no rush

A little bit'll keep you calm and that's no faith required

That's no faith desired

But if you want that then that's yours

Maybe this so called soul can soar?

Maybe, either way I've learned

to appreciate what I've got,

and to love the things that I am,

and to love the things that I'm not,

and to keep my head held high,

to live and not to get by,

to recall my roots but to let them go,

to not let getting high let me get low

and I know

I got my vices

and my crutches for my crisis

that ain't there to begin with

But you know I don't care to pretend it

I need pity please I need sympathy

Need you to feel this pain need empathy

Don't rescue me, don't get me

I need somebody I can drag down with me

No one? Y'all are just faking, telling me a

free ride isn't worth taking

Well if you do decide that you choose to ride

Just let me know whenever

We can go down together

We can go round wherever

Shit just you and I

Just me and you, it'd just be us two

and I could lead us to a downfall

Down a slippery slope, you're given me hope that I'm not alone after all

So is it wrong to say that I like the way that you're making me feel?

You say you're feeling fine but are you really lying and could you not be real?

Look I know were going down, soon gonna drown

and It's rising over your head

So do you wanna go and get sunk below

or do you wanna just tread?