SONIA (feat. Nitty Scott)

Once upon a time, little girl on the grind

Met a boy, he was nice at the time

Weeks from the days, plans that were made

Soon you could call them an item

Funny how a title makes them think they own you

Tellin' you how to dress and who to talk to

Fella please, don't nobody ask you

My great, great granny was born a slave

She found liberation before the grave

Who you tellin' how to behave?

Ooh, I'm tryin' to forgive, but can't forget

It was bad

It was bad

It was bad

It was bad

It wasn't cryin', that was bad

It wasn't lyin', that was bad

It wasn't blamin', that was bad

The self hatin', that was bad

It wasn't waitin', that was bad

It wasn't doubtin', that was bad

It wasn't screamin', that was bad

The fear of leavin', that was bad

Once upon a time, I believed in lines

Like I just wasn't good enough for you and other lies

Mr didn't miss the water till the well was dry

Tried and I tried, compromised, compromised

It was pourin' into you while emptyin' me

It was rationalizin' all your toxicity

It was hands around my neck with us on my back

It was pressure, pain and panic attacks

Had me faded to the wire, puttin' out my fire

Used to have requirements that turned into desires

Expected to retire me while keepin' you inspired

All the women in me are tired, listen ****

My Abuela ain't survive several trips around the sun

So I could give to somebody's .undeserving' son

This pussy don't pop for you

Boody don't bop for you

Never owe none, belong to no one

Now I only trust patterns, not apologise

First date questions, what's your ideologies?

D you love yourself? Are you healing your trauma?

What's your concept of wealth? l Do you check on your mama?

'Cause your loyalty ain't slavery, sis

That shits insulting to her bravery, sis

I know you tangle but this life is no exchange for your laborin', sis

Withhold your flavor, he unsavory, sis, sis

I remember saying not to things that happened anyway

I remember feeling low, the mirror took my face away

I couldn't recognize her, I laid and cried 'til my tears

Washed the kitchen tiles I swear I couldn't budge

But then I talked about it, till mama, sister, cousin'

Told me they went through it and since it's in my blood

'Cause if my blood went through it

I knew I couldn't do it, I knew that I could hear it

I tried to forgive but can't forget

It was bad

It was bad

It was bad

It was bad

It wan't cryin', that was bad

It wasn't lyin', that was bad

It wasn't blamin', that was bad

The self hatin', that was sad

It wasn't waitin', that was bad

It wan't dyin' that was bad

It wasn't screamin', that was bad

The fear of leavin', that was bad