Under Grass and Clover

Flashback from the night before Or was it the other day? I couldn't say It's all coming in pieces Before you know, they just fade away Goddamn, what did you hear, what did you do? Where did I go, and how'd I get there? I know I'm too far gone A deadbeat, a travesty, what's my strategy? Fuck me, there's blood in my hands That's nothing new, but now they're shaking too Everything's soaked in sweat Here comes the 'forgive and forget' Who should I forgive? Forget the plan I really don't give a damn I just need my fix, I'm dying Break out the bottle and stop crying And the calm washes over My soul drying my tears Under the grass and clover A new sense of hope appears (Walking) breathing exhaust Hard to keep an even keel (Shot) boiling mercury It burns so bad yet I can't feel (Choking) breathing exhaust Hard to keep an even keel (Sweating) boiling mercury It burns so bad yet I can't feel (Walking) in a minefield Tired of keeping my eyes peeled (Shot) to hell and fried No heaven, evermore denied And the calm washes over My soul drying my tears Under the grass and clover New sense of hope appears