Secrets

Dappy, turn my mic up

Today is the day that I'm gonna tell just a little 'bout myself

All of these haters, they don't understand me

They can touch the pain I've felt

I wish I could show them all of my secrets

And they might see through me

But if I tell my secrets or expose my weakness

I can let 'em tear through me

Mommy had problems, daddy couldn't solve them

Won't stop, they just add to her pain

Daddy, it's okay, yeah, I still love you

Because you show me love in every way

Mommy, I'm sorry for not always carin'

I get so lost when you weren't around

Since I was a young girl I kept isolated

I don't trust so I won't get let down

So who could be behind my smile?

I'm cryin' out and I'm left without a hand

T, no you ain't, you can tell us anything

We'll advise you in every way

One more thing for those who don't know we is family

We've known each other since we were babies

So I guess it's just another one of them days

I got bills to pay, studios to rent

Girl problems plus an album due within nine days

Stress to the brain, mumsy's goin' through so much pain

Every time I get paid money to Elaine

One mornin' you'll open your eyes to a blacked out Range

Gunshots, knife attacks

Seems like I'm livin' in a life of attacks

Government bills, dodgy deals

Leads to another life, crime on wheels

I'm so broke that it's no joke

Surround by addicts who be on coke

If I really wanted to I make money off them

Block in the mornin' and the proof by ten

I write them hits in my head

Don't need no time with paper and pen

I sell my demos in boxes of tens

Won't stop me unless you're a dirty bill

It feels like yesterday

Fifteen hooded up 13 year olds in Westie

Were the bester days, can you relate?

Young black boys from council estates

Rollin' around the ends twenty man strong

Pour some Hennessy for every man gone

I know I ain't sent no letters but still

Free hash, free deal, I'm for not much longer

Ever since I was a youngin'

I found it hard to find my way

That's why (I don't trust so I won't get let down)

So who could be behind my smile?

I'm cryin' out and I'm left without a hand

T, no you ain't, you can tell us anything

And we'll advise you in every way

One more thing for those who don't know we is family

We've known each other since we were babies

Oh, I went from not wantin' to live life no more

To appreciatin' every breath I take

If it wasn't for the music I probably wouldn't be here

That's why I pray to God every day

Screamin' the days where I could just fly away

I'm tryna stay strong but as for today I'm feelin' down

So who could be behind my smile?

I'm cryin' out and I'm left without a hand