drugs

Cause I had the best of the worst sides

And I had these lungs, oh

And I had too many flash fires

That I just let them burn

Till my chest is on fire

And my head just won't die

I guess I'm lying 'cause I want her

I guess I'm lying 'cause I don't

'Cause I just feel so tired

Like it's move or slowly die

So you ain't you when you're like this

This ain't you, and you know it

Ain't that just the point?

You don't know how to let go

Who said this must be all or nothing?

But I'm so caught below, and I'll never let you know

No, I can't tell you nothing

'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes

But still, I could always be whatever you wanted

But not what you needed

Especially when you been needing me

'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes

And I'll say what I don't mean

Just 'cause I wanted or maybe I need it

Swear lying's the only rush I need, yeah

'Cause all I needed was some words to say

That all these feelings don't mean shit to me

'Cause it's all these chemicals anyway, anyway, yeah

And I got way too many routes to take

To make this all just go away and find another heart to break

So heartless with these words I say

Just saying what I'm supposed to say

'Cause I have nothing for you

I can't love when I can't even love myself

Things I would rather be

Thoughts in the back of my head

But I'm addicted to hurting

And I got these lungs, yeah

And I spent too many late nights

Just thinking a hole in the earth

Till the sky is on fire

And my head still won't die

I guess I'm lying 'cause I want her

I guess I'm lying 'cause I don't

'Cause I just feel so tired

Like I need something to come alive

She says, "You ain't you when you're like this

This ain't you, what you doing?"

And I said, "That's the point"

You don't know how to let go

Who said this must be all or nothing?

But I'm so caught below, and I'll never let you know

No, I can't tell you nothing

'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes

But still, I could always be whatever you wanted

But not what you needed

Especially when you been needing me

'Cause I'm a fucking mess inside

And I'll say what I don't mean

Just 'cause I want it or maybe I need it

Swear lying's the only rush you need, yeah

Yeah, I need it, I need it, I need it, I need it