I Do Not Want This

I'm losing ground Well, you know how this world can beat you down And I'm made of clay I fear I'm the only one who thinks this way I'm always falling down the same hill Bamboo puncturing the skin And nothing comes bleeding out of me Just like a waterfall I'm drowning in Two feet below the surface I can still make out your wavy face And if I could just reach you Maybe I could leave this place I do not want this I do not want this I do not want this I do not want this And don't you tell me how I feel Don't you tell me how I feel Don't you tell me how I feel You don't know just how I feel I stay inside my bed I have lived so many lives all in my head And don't tell me that you care There really isn't anything now, is there? You would know, wouldn't you? You extend your hand to those who suffer To those who know what it really feels like To those who've had a taste Like that means something And oh, so sick I am And maybe I don't have a choice And maybe that is all I have And maybe this is a cry for help I do not want this I do not want this I do not want this I do not want this And don't you tell me how I feel Don't you tell me how I feel Don't you tell me how I feel You don't know just how I feel I wanna know everything I wanna be everywhere I wanna fuck everyone in the world I wanna do something that matters I wanna know everything I wanna be everywhere I wanna fuck everyone in the world I wanna do something that matters I wanna know everything I wanna be everywhere I wanna fuck everyone in the world I wanna do something that matters I wanna know everything I wanna be everywhere I wanna fuck everyone in the world I wanna do something that matters I wanna know everything I wanna be everywhere I wanna fuck everyone in the world I wanna do something that matters