The Diary

'Cause I don't wanna be like this

I've been running these streets for too long now

I've got nothing, it's true, but this song now

But the further I go, I wanna go home

'Cause I don't wanna be like this

I've been running these streets for too long now

I've got nothing, it's true, but this song now

But the further I go, I wanna go home

I fuckin' swear that I care, but it's hard when you stare

Into the bottom of a bottle that is empty and bare

Oh, my desolate soul in my desolate home

It's my desolate role, yeah, I'm here all alone

I can't think of a reason to get the fuck out of bed

Curtains closed, lights are off, am I alive or dead?

I haven't shaved in a week, I always slur when I speak

Tolerance at it's peak, another fifth just to sleep

Oh, woe is me, woe is me, I guess I need love

Hoes, you see, hoes, you see, I'm just in a rut

And I swear I'm tryin', baby, please baby, don't leave

Goddamn, I'm a fuck up, but I guess that's just me

So I sit in my room and I'll cry in my bed

Thinkin' about all the shit that made me wrong in my head

I keep trying to climb, but it seems so steep

Pour myself a fuckin' whiskey and go back to sleep, bitch

'Cause I don't wanna be like this

I've been running these streets for too long now

I've got nothing, it's true, but this song now

But the further I go, I wanna go home

'Cause I don't wanna be like this

I've been running these streets for too long now

I've got nothing, it's true, but this song now

But the further I go, I wanna go home

I watch my mama cry, she says, "Baby, why?"

I say, "Baby died, baby's gone like a suicide

I don't think you'll see him soon, mom

Stay out my room, mom

Tell daddy that I hate that motherfucker, like you, mom"

I sing this shit for you, Danny, Sasha, and Jordon

These beers keep gettin' warmer every time that I hold 'em

I pour this out for you, like a partner in crime

It's part of the times when you're sick in the mind

Yeah, I'm sick, oh so sick, I'm so sick of this shit

Yeah, I'm lit, oh so lit, I'm so fucked up off it

So I stumble around till I stumble, fall down

Into this puddle of my tears laying here on the ground

When you've got nothin' left, you've got nothin' left to lose

With my last, this single breath, I'll still be singing to you

So when you bury me, man, you better bury me deep

And sing along to this song 'cause you're broken, like me

'Cause I don't wanna be like this

I've been running these streets for too long now

I've got nothing, it's true, but this song now

But the further I go, I wanna go home

'Cause I don't wanna be like this

I've been running these streets for too long now

I've got nothing, it's true, but this song now

But the further I go, I wanna go home

And I wanna go back to the start

Back where we started from

And I know it's been so long

I was wrong, I was wrong, I was wrong all along

And I wanna go back to the start

Back where we started from

And I know it's been so long

I was wrong, I was wrong, I was wrong all along

'Cause I don't wanna be like this

I've been running these streets for too long now

I've got nothing, it's true, but this song now

But the further I go, I wanna go home

'Cause I don't wanna be like this

I've been running these streets for too long now

I've got nothing, it's true, but this song now

But the further I go, I wanna go home