Rookie

I never thought this could be me

I guess you never do

Until it's happening to you

Like all the fun turns into shame

And all the could have beens

Rearrange

So little time, so many crimes

Guilt like a chain, chokes my will away

Redemption never seemed so cruel

And all my gods, never seemed so weak

Wake up, engage

Now derailed and enraged

It used to be so easy

Get up, I'm game

Now I'm sick and I'm tame

Counting cost with lost

Where is, the hope, they gave?

And don't think, that I, can't hear you laugh

I used to be, a lot like you

But now I'm only me

I used to be, a lot like you

But now I'm only me, I'm only me

(Drinks to pills to shots)

(Fun turns into shock)

(A habit and a pawn)

(For every hand goes round)

(The pain gets so damn loud)

(The hammer hits) and I'm down

And I'm down, and I'm down, and I'm down

Trust no one, hey, why should I

They gave me the poison dressed like life

Cheated, smacked up and diseased

Cry to sleep and fight to eat

Used to be a pro at this

Now I've broken my own wrist

Rotten teeth and life unsung

You'll forget me when I'm gone

Wake up, engage

Now derailed and enraged

It used to be so easy

Get up, I'm game

Now I'm sick and I'm tame

Counting cost with lost

I used to be, a lot like you

But now I'm only me

I used to be, a lot like you

But now I'm only me, I'm only me