Modafinil Blues

I'ma touch fast

Though I'll be last

To play with the heart from the start

I'll be straight

The second best boy

Unlike the rest boy

I'll stick around in the house of your mind

At the gate

And I never thought they'd get to you

So tell me have they gotten to you too?

Did you tell them what they wanted to know?

Did you show them what I wanted to show you?

And it's coming undone so I run and I run

But there's nowhere left worth running to

It's hopeless at best, but what do we get?

A sense of regret which feels like nothing new

I'm the white ash from the smoke stack

Helplessly floating from embers that create

Troubled at best, boy, another decoy

Dipping my hat to the man, fanning the flame

I never thought they could get you to crack

So tell me how they got me to crack you

Did you really think you could trust

Such a man with a head full of rust too?

As it was coming undone, I could have told you to run

But I searched and I yearned for that pill to get me through

And I'm helpless at best, equal to the rest

I'll always forget not to be blue