Abandoned 2 (feat. Rav)

My penmanship slips, sloppy as all hell Both feet dangle from the top of the guardrail Streetfight stance, get up off of him, he guard well Lost on the road, tryin' to find if his star fell Heavy as barbell, his thoughts remained and dipped Deep in construction, but he lost the manuscripts Break through the skull, slide across the candle-lit floor No tellin' what's in store for the boar Life is a balancing act that I can't keep up But I'm rollin' with the punches by rollin' a couple trees up, it slows me The solution turns to problems Momma told me keep my head out the clouds, I heard it often Now I'm dead to the world, where my coffin? Catch me sittin' by the gravity bong, you heard the coughin', time to sleep Seems like it's all that I do I say I'm down to the death, but I don't talk to my crew Man I'm withdrawn, grippin' a big bong, a tall cup I haven't even made it, people sayin' I'm washed up Y'all got me fucked up... literally It's puff puff to get to sleep, puff puff for energy I fucked up, synergy lost, I'm depressed Feel the world crumble 'round me, like it's all for the best I don't fuck with you lames tryin' to talk and I'm stressed I'm screamin' "Fuck the world," from the top of my chest Kill Bill is JINZO and JINZO will kill Bill He change when the wind blows, the windows are still filthy Fog the vision, the 5-7 split, that's a long division Cuttin' it back just means Longer spliff ends, dead to the medicine I've fallin' victim to my own evil deeds I'm just sittin' in the static of my old frequencies I ask the voices when they'll stop, they all answer, "Forfeit!" Exploring this torment and dormancy, it's morbid Every one of my demons is now currently in orbit My every fear mocks me, it murders me to live In the living room of a dying world that I rage war with But I refuse to die in the world that I was born in Seeking peace of mind, but my mind pieces torture My existence and I'm trying to resist it, but it's boring I've seen through their pattern: first they laugh, then run from me It's like I'm tryin' to sell cigarettes to these tobacco companies But why do I insist to make them happy when I know not? Of happiness myself, sitting trapped within my shell If that act alone don't seem backwards in itself Then consider all my vices that keep damaging my health It seems that I'll never reach the bandage on the shelf And it's not that I can't reach it, I just haven't got the will So what's the point, then? Why seek a partner, a house, or employment? If you don't ever experience enjoyment Then all the time you spend just gets flushed down the toilet Well, or at least that's just how I see things Don't find joy in pricey things: clothes, cars, diamond rings Y'all keep saying that I think so dark, enlighten me Every expectation is just so large, it frightens me Tired of this planet, but no star's inviting me You tell me to speak up, but when I open up, you hide from me You're all happy or just all trying to lie to me And so my dark thought refinery's still functionin' Tryin' to punch through the walls cause I hope To discover lots of cameras, "Rav this was a hoax!" This was all a ruse to raise your wrath, really Now you can live happily, but the fact actually is... I'm still livin' on a planet Where my self interests don't matter Where my selfishness won't vanish I'm still abandoned Still livin' on a planet Where my self interests don't matter Where my selfishness won't vanish I'm still abandoned